Life as I know it.

       Lately I have been feeling like a horrible mother. I remember a time when I LOVED being a mom. I was never one of those moms who looked forward to sending my kid off to Kindergarten, not that there is anything wrong with that and now that I have 3 kiddos, instead of one, I understand the desire better. I always planned to home school my son, I was always the "activity mom." I filled our days with activities to make as many memories as I could. I have always been painfully aware of what a short time we have with our children. I had 28 years without my son in my life, then I get 18 short years with him before he flies the coup and then another 30 years or so, where he is off living his own life.        Here it is just a few years later and instead of having one kid I currently have 3, we took a break from homeschooling, and although we are back now, my mom is the one who does most of Bug's schooling. I have been going to college for the last 3 years and am currentl

Very early today my hubby Blue, headed to Africa, for his first mission trip He is going with MOVE, (Men Of Vision Evangelize), the the village of Mare in Guinea Africa to build a church. There is already a group of Christians there, but they have no church to worship in, so MOVE is going to build them one. Blue will be gone 19 days, leaving me at home with 3 children, our son Bug, our daughter Sweetpea and our foster daughter Story. It should be an interesting time. I have had lots of people saying "if you need anything while he's gone, give us a call." I am not good about asking for help, so I will most likely not call any of these people and had told my hubby this before he left so he said "I know that. So I told everyone if they want to help, they need to just show up on our door and say 'what can I do?'" I loved it, it made me feel so special to know that he knew me well enough to let people know this for me. We have not been apart for this leng

What a great weekend, busy but fun. We still have both of our girls Sweetpea and Story, we haven't gotten any new information about Sweetpea yet. I have tried to call the Tribe Social Worker, but she has not called me back, so we just continue on like it is any other day. Really it has been a busy week, but I will just tell you about the weekend for now Yesterday the girls had ballet in the morning, then we all went to a movie with my friend Brenda and her two kids, we also ran into my friend Meegan, her husband James and their 3 kiddos.Then in the afternoon Sweetpea had a birthday party and Story and Bug went to hang out at Brenda's.Then last night Don and Bug went to a Chiefs hockey game and the girls went to date night at St Mathews (a local church) , while I got in a little studying. Today we had church this morning and I helped out in the girls classroom. Good thing to since we had a ton of new kids in there. I tried to some cleaning done this afternoon but the girls

As the title says "so far, so good" on both the organization and the new kid front. Story is still with us and has been adjusting fairly well. It is definitely harder having an older child, when they are younger you can pretty easily distract them from their sadness, not so much when they are older. Thankfully she will be having a visit with her daddy this week, so hopefully that will make her feel better. Other then missing her parents, she is doing well. She seems to enjoy the daycare that we have her at and her and Sweetpea are still doing well with having to share everything. I did figure out something that made me sad this week though, she has no concept of how to play board games. Sweetpea loves to play games and we have been playing them with her since she was 3, so she totally understands, how to play, what is expected and even how to count out her spaces (most of the time). Unfortunately Story understands none of these concepts, Sweetpea want to play games with her,

Well to start with we have a new kiddo around here. Last week we decided to take in a cute little 5 year old girl,to give Sweetpea a new playmate. Her nickname is Story and so far she really lives up to that. She seems to be a very imaginative little girl, she want us to call her Princess Tiana, from the Frog Prince movie, but I explained that we have to call her by her name. So far she has told me about the castle that she lives in, her little sister Vanilli, an older sister/cousin and all of the wonderful plans she has for her birthday, which passed recently. It is hard to keep straight what might be real and what is pure fantasy. I can't wait to get more info on her from her social worker. As usual we have no idea how long we will have her, but things have gone well so far. We have her going to a daycare, right by Sweetpea's school, which is convenient but also nice in that is gives the girls time away from each other, so that by the end of the day they miss each other and i

New Years eve was fun, Bug had his buddy E spend the night and we had a 3 course fondue dinner and watched the MIB trilogy to bring in the New Year. I really feel that this is going to be a great year for my family. I don't have any specific reason to say that other then that I will graduate in June and hopefully be starting my new career, shortly after. I just have a good feeling. Life has been good, not easy, but good. Don has been getting more and more involved in Church, in fact, he is heading out for a missions trip to Africa in about 6 weeks and I'm so excited to see what God has in store for him during this trip. Also my church is hosting one of my favorite Christian studies called The Truth Project, starting next Wed. I went through this study many years ago at my old church, (I believe even before I became a Christian) and got so much out of it. I am excited to go through it again with this whole new perspective in my life. The kiddos are good, no new news about Sw